my boyfriend just left me. yesterday. we were cleaning up a bit. he was raking leaves in the yard I was cleaning inside. we brought the trees in from outside for the winter. I was trimming them so they’d fit. and he started to cry and told me he couldn’t be here anymore and I tried to talk him out of it. i told him it wasn’t the right time we had just talked about getting married next summer and having babies right away and going to florida for a long weekend in january and i tried to convince him to stay in the relationship if not in the house but he left with just a bag and a case of beer and i don’t know when he’s coming back. i don’t know if i should put the pictures of us away or if i should wash his clothes with mine or just leave them dirty in a bag and i don’t know if i should ask him for money for all of the bills he hasn’t paid or start packing his stuff so i don’t have to look at. i don’t want to sort through 3and ahalf years of books and cds that are mixed together and who gets the stuff we bought together and why the fuck did he have to choose a saturday in november after we spent the morning grinning at each other in the mirror at yoga?
{ 2003 11 09 }
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