girlfiend

Begin rant:

I am so frustrated. I just had this icky horrible conversation with B while he was driving. I hate trying to have a serious conversation when one or more of the participants is driving. He wanted to know why I was throwing so much heat at him lately so I told him. I told him that I don’t quite fully trust him, that I’m sick of waiting, and that it makes me crazy when he makes excuses for the behaviors that bother me. Of course everyone makes excuses, but this time I’m speaking specifically about how he says I’m the most important person in his life, he says I’m his favorite person, but he still flakes out on holiday dinners with my family.

Last night at dinner, he called and asked if we had eaten. I was excited, thinking that he was still going to try to make it. When I told him that yes, we had eaten, but I saved food for him, he responded by saying, “Oh, well I guess I’ll just go out with my family for sandwiches.” Of course I “threw heat” at him. Why wouldn’t I? He said he would do something, something else at the same time came up. He finished the thing with his family, but instead of trying to attend the thing he’d originally said he’d do for a short while, he went out for BLTs with his family. That makes me really mad. He could have made me feel better, just by showing up for a while and he chose not to. His choices don’t correspond with the claim that I’m his favorite person.

Weeks ago, I invited him to go to a play with my father and I. He didn’t want to go which is fine. So I’m going to this play tomorrow night. Tonight I have plans to go out with my friend. Now he’s all sad because he doesn’t get a weekend night with me. He had the option of going to the play tomorrow. In fact, it’s still an option because it’s not sold out. He still has the option of going out tonight but is too tired. So what am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to drop everything because he’s sulky? I don’t have the patience for this.

End rant.