October 2008

Sometimes I am an idiot

A few years ago when I had tons of wedding returns store credit I went on a kitchen utensil buying spree. Some of the shit I bought has become indispensible; I love my microplane grater and think everyone should have one. Some of the shit I bought was useless; I really didn’t need a special Calphalon steamer basket. It seemed like a good idea, but really, it wasn’t.

The (what I thought were) heat-proof, non-stick safe tongs I purchased have irked me from the first time I used them. They aren’t all that heat-proof (one look at the melty edge can prove that) and they don’t have a locking mechanism which makes storing them a huge pain in the ass. I’ve been cursing them for years and finally figured out that a rubberband is the best way to keep them shut so I can store them without them taking up a ton of space. Rubberbands rule, but for $10 I shouldn’t need a rubberband to keep the tongs locked.

Yesterday I needed the tongs to flip some chicken I was browning. I took off the rubberband and instead of springing open they stayed shut. I was puzzled but I forgot about it once they opened. Later when I went to put them away I noticed something I’d never noticed before. The little hanging hole at the top isn’t just a little hole. The fucking thing pulls out to lock the tongs. It pulls out! For years I’ve been cursing the tongs and for years I’ve just been too stupid to work them properly. Sometimes I am an idiot.

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Go Phils

Putting the Fiendling to bed was a huge pain in the ass tonight. I needed something and somehow decided upon hot chocolate.

I was reticent to add the kahlua-esque liquor because of the added caffeine. And the Baileys just seemed like it would be too much. It turns out hot chocolate and vokda is a very drinkable combination. In case you were wondering (which I know you were), since we don’t have any Swiss Miss on hand I actually had to make hot chocolate: milk, cocoa, sugar, salt and vanilla. I don’t fuck around.

Next time I’ll be sure to add the hot milk to the powder instead of the other way around.  I was left with a few lumps at the bottom and I sort of wanted to eat them just to get the extra vodka, but the unsweetened cocoa powder turned me off.

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408 months

Dear Boyfiend,

This parenting job with the sleep deprivation and lack of spontanaity and sex can be a little bit rough on a marriage. I know I’m not always the person you want me to be. But you, despite your time-consuming and ever-multiplying hobbies, keep getting better and better.

Months ago, when I was pregnant with the baby I described you to a new friend: He’s really turned into a great person. Not that he wasn’t great when I married him, but fatherhood really brought out his strengths.

Each day I see you with our children and think about how true this statement is. I couldn’t have chosen a better mate. I love you.

Happy birthday.

Love,

me

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Mommybloggery

I feel like this blog has been all kids all the time for the past few months.  I really do things and think about things that aren’t child related. Really. I swear. So why then, when I want to write about something that’s not a monthly update (and holy shit the baby is five months old tomorrow) do I draw a blank?

What have I been doing?

I’ve made it back to the gym for real. The Fiendling and the baby have both been great in the babysitting room so I’ve been taking advantage of it three days a week. It’s like free babysitting for the low, low price of $56 a month. And I can take an uninterrupted shower.

I’ve also gone back to yoga. I’m stunned by how easily my body remembers how to do the asanas. It’s easier than riding a bike. I’ve been going to a yoga class on Thursday nights. I like the class but I hate that the instructor makes all share something at the beginning before the opening meditation. When Isaac first got diagnosed I wanted to keep it to myself but I ended up spilling it all over the place and sobbing. She did a lot of heart opening asanas that night and when I left I felt better. The following week I shared that Isaac had died and cried some more. During the opening meditation the instructor rubbed my back and shoulders. It was nice. Then during final relaxation she put her hands on my back. I felt warmth then a release. Tears streamed down my face but I wasn’t crying like I had been. I realized at some point that she was doing (is that the verb?) Reiki and holy shit that works. I’ve felt better about Isaac since then.

I’ve  spent a decent amount of time on the Facebook. It’s fun catching up with old friends especially when you don’t know who the hell half of them are. My best friend from high school and I keep messaging each other trying to figure out who the fuck half of these people are and why they think we were ever friends with them. It sure does make me feel popular though.

There’s more. Perhaps one of these days I’ll get around to actually writing about instead of thinking about writing about it.

I have hobbies
me

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Two years and seven months

For those of you counting the Fiendling is now 31 months old.

He’s been relatively well behaved, listening and following the rules. Instead of running away from the playground to the gazebo down the hill he says, “If I run away we go home.” Instead of jumping on the baby he says, “If I jump on him I have to go to my room.” He’s been sweet to his brother and sweet to me.

Our days have been good. We’ve settled into a nice routine. In the mornings we hang around the house for a few hours so the baby can get in a morning nap then we go out around 10 or 11. We go to a Fiendling-themed activity until 12.30 or 1 then come home for lunch and the baby’s afternoon nap. While the baby naps the Fiendling watches movies, plays with trains, reads stories, colors or we play outside. He usually gets a little rammy by the time the baby wakes, but it’s bearable and I’m usually able to get a few chores done while he plays.

He’s still a pain in the ass at bedtime. Some nights it isn’t that bad but most nights he just doesn’t want to go to sleep. He tosses and turns and screams and shouts then cries and I just want to throttle him. On occasion he wakes up in the middle of the night and crawls into bed with us. He just walks downstairs and climbs into our bed. Sometimes I wake up and bring him back upstairs but other times I sleep through it and find him in bed in the morning. The other night his wake up unfortunately coincided with one of the baby’s. I was nursing the baby and heard the Fiendling coming downstairs. He went into my bedroom and couldn’t find me. He went down the hall into the parlor and didn’t find me there either. He started to walk downstairs so I had to dump the baby in the crib and grab him before he took a stepstool and unlocked the front door when he didn’t find me down there either.

The kid is not such a good eater but he’s not altogether horrible either. He went from eating salsa and Thai curry a year ago to eating mostly fruit and noodles. I hate serving him plain pasta and rice for dinner, but when he refuses to eat what we’re eating I’d rather have him eat something than nothing. Some nights he just eats crackers. Last night he ate sunflower seeds for dinner. Tonight he ate stir fried spicy greens and bok choy with rice, sunflower seeds and raw, whole carrots. Later, after I’d gone to the gym he ate macaroni and cheese. He’s unpredictable.

I think it’s absurd that he says, “Mom, change my diaper. I have poo,” then climbs up on the changing table. He flushes the toilet after I dump the mess then washes his hands in the sink. It’s ridiculous. Yet he has no interest in using the toilet or a potty. He says, “No, I’m just going to go in my diaper.” I’m unwilling to force the issue. I won’t potty train a kid who doesn’t want to be potty trained. But for god’s sake, enough already with the diapers.

You can really have conversations with him now. I’m sure that if you don’t spend a lot of time with him  he can be difficult to understand but the level of discourse has really improved.  I mean I’m using the word discourse here.

The other day we were watching videos of him on the computer. One of the videos was from his birthday shortly after he’d opened a gift I’d never gotten around to giving him for Christmas or Chanukah. The gift was a bag of play food and he loved it. He was walking back and forth between family members giving them food. In the brief video I asked him to get me some more food. He got a head of cauliflower. I asked him if he could eat it and he mimed eating, nodding his head and saying “yum, yum, yum.” That particular video fascinated him. We must have watched it more than a dozen times before he said, “Mom. Say get me more food.” I said it and he took off down the steps. He returned a few minutes later with the cauliflower and said, “Mom. Say can you eat it.” I asked if he could eat it and just like in the video he pretended to, nodding his head and saying, “yum, yum yum.” We must have played that game for hours. He kept returning with different food items and each time he’d tell me exactly what to say and correct me if I tried to ad lib.

He likes to be assured of things. He’ll see an elephant in a book and ask, “Mom, that is an elephant?” I’ll say yes and he’ll say, “Oh yes, it is an elephant.” Similar exchanges occur numerous times a day. That is an apple? Oh yes, it is an apple. You dropped something? Oh yes, you did drop something.

Speaking of dropping things, when he hears something clatter to the floor (and the inevitable cursing that follows) he’ll ask, “Are you okay mom?” When I say yes he’ll say, “Oh, you are okay.”

He also seeks approval. He often questions if he’s made me, or his dad or his brother happy. Sometimes he’s dead wrong. His brother will be sobbing uncontrollably and he’ll say, “I make him happy!” But most of the time he’ll see me smile and say, “You are happy mom, I make you happy?” And nine times out of ten the answer is yes.

Last weekend he insisted on wearing his elephant costume from his first Halloween. He wore it all day long. He’s a little bigger, but he’s as cute now as he was then.

F (Fiendling)

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Four months

I’m still sort of a wreck about Isaac. The Fiendling, who hasn’t yet realized he’s gone, keeps saying, “You are sad mom? You are sad because Isaac is sick?” And I say, “yes, I am sad about Isaac.”

Sadness aside I wanted to update a little since the baby is four months old and there’s a lot going on.

First there’s the four month sleep regression which coincides with the 19 week developmental spurt. I am lucky that the sleep regression has only resulted in one middle of the night wakeup and one early morning wakeup. He wakes, whimpers, eats, then goes straight back to sleep. I preferred when he was sleeping straight through the night, but this isn’t bad so I’m not complaining. He’s also still a great napper. He fusses when he’s tired and goes to sleep almost immediately when he hits the crib. I appreciate that in a baby.

He also seems to be teething. Copious amounts of drool, nonstop chewing of his shirt, sleeves, fingers, my shoulders and just about everything he can get his hands on have made him a bit damp these past few weeks, but he’s been handling it swimmingly without too much fuss.

The dinnertime misery has hit at the same time as the separation anxiety and poor Boyfiend is stuck with a baby who wants nothing to do with him when he gets home from work. The baby isn’t much happier with me between the hours of 5 and 7, but he stops screaming when I hold him.

He’s close to sitting up by himself and sits very well when propped. He’s rolled over a few times but doesn’t really see the point in it yet. I’m relieved he’s in no hurry to be mobile.

He’s really playing now, and laughing like only a baby can. He loves the swing and the exersaucer and has really warmed up to his big brother. He loves to be tickled and kissed and his big, gummy grins (that I’ll miss when his teeth come through) light up a room.

The kid is a keeper.

T (the baby)

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Isaac

Isaac died sometime yesterday. He hadn’t left the carrier since we took him to the vet on Monday. He wasn’t eating or drinking. I called the vet to see what, if anything, I should do and she said, “He may be trying to tell you something. I’ll call you in the morning.” We went to Rosh Hashanah dinner at my aunt’s house and when we got home he was gone.

Bob went out to dig a grave in the back yard just as it started to rain. Within a few minutes he was digging in a thunderstorm. I sat on the steps and watched him dig, crying.

I wish I’d been paying more attention. I should have known he was sick. I was looking for pictures of him with the baby and I couldn’t find any. Tons of pictures with him and the Fiendling but not a single picture of him on the playmat, the couch, or any of the usual locations. His absence should have alerted me. He loved being close to us and in the past few months he just hasn’t been. I know renal failure in cats is terminal and it would have gotten him anyway, but maybe if I’d caught it earlier we would have had more time and he wouldn’t have declined so quickly.

Isaac was a great cat. He was sweet and friendly and affectionate. He loved people and animals and scratches under the chin. I am going to miss him.

One happy cat

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